Saturday, December 12, 2009
Dance Accompanist - Tools of the Trade
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Art vs. Academia

I get mixed reactions when I tell people that I'm applying to graduate ancient history programs. Some are sincerely excited for me, some are surprised, and many give me blank stares as they try to figure out if they heard me correctly.
Their reactions aren't wholly unexpected though, considering the fact that I spent the majority of my lifetime pursuing everything music. I dedicated a daily chunk of life from age 12-19 to the piano, violin, flute, CD players, church musicians, and every other miscellaneous class and training my time could afford. It was so much fun and I knew I was good at it because of all the validation I received.
But as life always goes, ten-year plans as a 15 year-old rarely ever remain unchanged. Who would've thought that I'd end up being a college graduate applying to ancient history departments?
The point of the matter is, they're right when they say that your teen years are the most formative years. Because now I am constantly engaged in this inner struggle between pursuing music or academia. Of course I've asked myself, why not do both? Pursuing one doesn't exclude the other. Philosophically speaking, that's certainly possible and certainly very appealing.
But then I take my head out of the clouds and imagine life more realistically. Earning a doctorate in Greco-Roman history is not like getting a 9-5 job with free evenings and weekends. I'd imagine lectures, seminars, meetings, and TONS of reading, not to mention the ridiculous amounts of language acquisition. And I don't know how other students do it, but when I write, I need to completely lose myself in another world in order to write logically and effectively.
How does that leave time and, more importantly, the right atmosphere for doing things like songwriting, music lessons, improving technique, and listening? Creating takes place on a whole other plane and you need to be completely immersed. Ask any artist and they'll tell you how much dedication is required to create something good and satisfactory.
I guess when I think of my personal goals, I want to be single-focused and pursue one thing to the best of my ability. But there's always that strange feeling of regret and uncertainty that I shouldn't have given up the other path. And I get easily swayed. After a particularly stirring artistic performance, whether it be music, writing, art, or dance, my artistic side gets seemingly reawakened. Then the next day I discover another incredible book by Martin Goodman on Jewish society in the Roman empire and am ready to dive headlong into the academic world. Of course, I haven't given up on one or the other entirely. But I've come to the conclusion that I can only be dedicated to one or else be mediocre in both.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Repercussions of too much language study


I've been noticing that I've been increasingly dissatisfied with reading translated texts. With ancient texts in particular, English renditions always seem a bit disjointed and awkward. Not that reading it in the Latin or Greek would be any easier, but you would be able to tell exactly which words and phrases are modifying which.
Put another way, reading a translation instead of the original is like the difference between looking at a photograph of the Lake District in England and seeing it with your own eyes. The photograph can give you an idea of what the place looks like, but you won't really know how real and beautiful it is without being there for yourself. Seeing it with your eyes gives you better depth perception, more vivid colors, and a panoramic view.
With that said, I'm having a lot of trouble reading the Bible without stopping at every phrase and wondering, "How else could that have been translated? What other words could they have used for that one word?" I know it might sound incredibly nerdy, but it's really troublesome. It takes me forever to get through a chapter. The NT is okay because I can imagine what the Greek may look like, but the OT is a killer. Hebrew is so different I can't imagine what the original is like. It may as well be Akkadian.
Do other people who study ancient languages have this problem?
I guess the solution is: I gotta learn Hebrew now.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Classical World in Cinema

Just putting in a plug for my professor, Matthew Fox, who is teaching this course this semester at Rutgers. I took it my junior year and loved it. We watched a different movie each week (Quo Vadis, Gladiator, Monty Python, to name a few) and spent class time discussing the political/social history, and film critics' reviews on each movie. Professor Fox is the best I've had at Rutgers in leading class discussions.
This class is what sparked my interest in the Greco-Roman world of the New Testament which is now what I wish to pursue in graduate school.
It's a 3-credit class, I believe, and the workload is very light (mostly readings + a few short papers). It only meets once a week, though at an off-campus location. If you have a car, it is definitely worth it!
Click on the picture to see a larger flyer.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Love Poetry in Near Eastern languages
This piece won first prize, but the others are definitely worth checking out!
by Sophie Harvey and Olivier Holmey
Undergraduates in Egyptology at Oxford
I love you.
I'm going to steal your heart
Because I am hungry for your love.
There is no other woman in my heart.
Unloose the bolt to your heart.
Dance with me till the land brightens.
You are my first, my end, my everything.
Heaven on earth is being in your embrace.
You are beautiful of face.
Your body is carved in alabaster.
I adore you like a flower or a star.
You are my first, my end, my everything.
I taste your lips and they are like a soft breeze.
I smell your perfume.
You are a goddess to me.
I was blind but with you I see.
I will take away your clothes
Because we wish to make love.
I breathe upon your body,
Making you tremble with exultation.
I kiss every place of your body.
You fill me with desire.
I will obey your every command.
I can't stop loving you.
I love you.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
College is over!
I could:
- look for a full-time job
- apply for a Latin teacher position
- apply to graduate programs
- travel the world for a bit first
- chill for a couple years before going back to school
- start my own company
- go on a missions trip to an exotic place
- live in a different state for a couple months
- try out an archaeology program in the middle east
- take jazz piano lessons!
- get married
I could make every one of those happen if I set my mind to it (ok, maybe not the last one). But it's way too hard to make a decision. Maybe I should ask myself, when I'm 70 years old, which one, or combination, of those would be most fulfilling. I think I should go around and interview some grandpas and grandmas.
According to Frank (my older brother), the only good thing about being old is having grandkids. If that's the case, then I need to get married.
According to Mom, she wishes every day to go back to school and get a PhD. I realize that I got my nerd genes from her, so it may be wise for me to continue my schooling. Also according to Mom, I need to make a lot of money so I can pay for my schooling.
According to my abnormal psychology professor, you can't find any fulfillment outside of yourself. Fulfillment comes from "finding your inner loving self", and in loving people without expectation. It makes complete sense, except for the inner loving self part. Unlike Prof. James, I believe that humans are inherently selfish. But not hopelessly selfish, because with God there is grace.
In any case, I know what I want when I'm 70:
- grandkids
- not to be senile
- able to tell good stories
- be published
- contribute a province in God's kingdom
Right now, I just want to read a good work of fiction or something non-academic. Haven't had the luxury in ages.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Officially done with thesis!
The exciting news is Prof. Brennan and Prof. Connolly proposed that we type set and publish my thesis online! It would be a nice little publication for Rutgers alumni/ae to read. Thomas Frusciano, the Rutgers archivist, also wants a copy to keep in the archives. I feel like I'm actually making a small contribution to the academic world at last.
So, once my thesis is nicely proofreaded and formatted, I'll post it on here for those nerds who enjoy reading painfully detailed accounts of history.
IN OTHER NEWS!!
This saturday is Rutgers Day! Come watch the classics department take center stage on the steps of Brower Commons on College Ave! There's going to be a runway -- Greek and Roman fashion shows every hour, AND a reenactment of gladiatorial combat at 1pm. My very own thesis adviser will be deejaying. haha... I wouldn't miss it for the world.
Monday, April 06, 2009
Proud of Rutgers Classics
I've already written a post about my thesis adviser, Prof. Corey Brennan, who is super famous in the classics world. Today I was in his office and he had tons of correspondence from various universities and even something from the US Supreme Court about Cicero! (Not that I was snooping around or anything... it was all sprawled out on the table.)
Anyway, today I just read his blog post on my Latin professor, Serena Connolly, who is my all-time favorite professor and who apparently just was awarded a fellowship at the Institute for Advanced Study at Princeton. And guess what she is working on? A "book-length examination of the Disticha Catonis—an Imperial collection of Latin aphorisms—in their classical context"!!I am quite excited for her and the topic she is studying. Hope to read her work when she's done! Here's the link for the rest of the blog post: http://rutgersclassics.wordpress.com/2009/04/05/serena-connolly-receives-200910-mellon-fellowship-for-assistant-professors-at-institute-for-advanced-study/
Oh and as a side note. My adviser also wrote an introductory blog post on my thesis topic. =) Here it is: http://rutgersclassics.wordpress.com/2009/03/27/a-60-second-ru-history-lesson-the-rutgers-latin-motto-sol-iustitiae-et-occidentem-illustra/
More about that later!
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
The Janitor Musician
It's great to be considered a well-rounded kind of musician who can be useful in various musical functions, but sometimes, I feel more like a janitor than a musician.For example, compare the following scenarios:
- There is a spill in the cafeteria. Call the janitor.
- The trash bins are overflowing. Where is the janitor?
- Why are there no more paper towels in the restrooms? Call the janitor.
- I need an accompanist for service this Sunday. Call Jessica.
- I need a studio accompanist for company class next week. Call Jessica.
- Who can I get to accompany the violin recital? Maybe Jessica can.
- I need a keyboardist for the summer conference. Call Jessica.
- How does this hymn go again? Jessica, can you play it?
- I can't accompany so many vocalists. Jessica, can you take some?
- My pianist just became ill. Can you play for the choir this Sunday?
- We would love to have handbells for the Christmas service. Call Jessica.
- Who can we get to play music at our wedding? Ask Jessica.
I could go on forever, but you get the point. All-purpose musicians get used the most and appreciated the least. Their skills are taken forgranted (just like sound technicians). Why do I feel like an every-day, all-purpose musician that people can pull from the shelf and use whenever they need?
Nor am I the only one. Many musicians like me go unappreciated all the time. That is the reason why there are so many of us non-elite, freelance, working-class musicians. Who would be inspired to reach for higher achievements when they are treated like this?
Monday, March 30, 2009
Launching new website!
Click on the picture or go to www.coramdeotutorials.com.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
My Thesis Adviser
AND he used to be in a rock band called The Lemonheads!
Read the rest below:
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
Alert: nerd post
Did you know that if you're a university student, you can request articles to be sent to you electronically? Rutgers libraries has a pretty big collection of electronic periodicals but they usually don't go back far enough. Today, I needed an article from 1971 which was not available electronically. I filled out an ILL request form to have the article delivered to me, and within 3 hours, I received the article in my account scanned in and delivered in PDF format! Do they hire people to run around in the libraries and fill requests like these?
I can't believe I did not discover this until my final semester of college. What an amazing service!
Here's the link so you can try it out for yourself.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Do I have enough?
Do I have enough.
I can already foresee the many results that would come about if I could always keep that question in mind. I would spend a whole lot less money. I would be happier. My life would be simpler. I would have more time. I would live more in the present and less in the future. I would not age so quickly. I would be less stressed. I would be less selfish and more willing to serve others. And the list could go on and on...
Contentment really is a powerful virtue. It's hard to cultivate contentment in the culture I live in. I am daily reminded at school of all the achievements I could obtain for myself. Advertisements and coupons in the mail reinforce my selfish nature. And there is hardly a website I can visit where there isn't some advertisement for a sale product.
Some people advise you to ask yourself, "Do I really need that?" before you buy a product. But that question doesn't always work. There will always be something that you "need". More often than not, the "need" is something that will enhance your life rather than a necessity. It's better to ask the question "Do I have enough?" because in reality, you can live quite a satisfying and comfortable life with relatively very little.
And thus, I agree with Charles Dickens, whom the author quotes at the end of her article: "Enough is such a wonderful word."
Monday, January 26, 2009
Upcoming Performance
Friday, January 30th, 6:00 PM.
Share Recital Hall, in the Marryott Music Building second floor (Douglass)
(P.S. This is my first time performing since sophomore year. It's been a while!)
