Saturday, December 12, 2009

Dance Accompanist - Tools of the Trade

I've been working as a piano accompanist at Princeton Ballet School for 2.5 years now. It's been a very unique kind of experience because, although I'm still working in a music-related field, I also get an insider's look at the world of dance and dance companies.

In the first part of this blog, I want to reflect on my observations and things I've learned while on the job. In the second part, I want to help out other dance accompanists by talking about the tips and tricks I've learned in accompanying ballet.

Being an accompanist is a really strange position. I've spent most of my life preparing big concert pieces to perform for an audience. As a dance accompanist, however, it's a little different. While I am still, in a way, performing for an audience, the focus is not on me as the performer anymore. It's on the dancers. I know my job is to make music that fits the movement and hopefully gives the dancers a little inspiration. It's easier to do the first part; hard to do the last. There's such a temptation week after week to just go through each class with the same set of music and play mechanically because you've played them a million times. But as a musician, I feel like I am committing an awful crime when I do that. My training has taught me that it is wrong to perform music unmusically when you have the technique and artistry necessary to make it more musical. So there's always a tug of war between playing just the rhythm and playing short familiar pieces musically.

I'll admit the job gets pretty boring, especially if you are stuck playing for a less-than-inspiring teacher. But once in a while, you get to play for an amazing, exciting teacher and it makes work so much fun. You also get to know the teacher and learn a bit about a dancer's life. I've also played a few company classes and got to see a few of their performances. Absolutely inspiring.

I never knew how much of a financial struggle small dance companies have to go through. I've been realizing that if you want to be a dancer, you really can't be in it for the money. Ticket sales barely cover any of the costs. They rely heavily on sponsors and grants. Perhaps that's why many companies have dance schools. At least you can make a little profit there. It's a bit sobering to see how hard those dancers work but how little they get paid. Sobering yet inspiring.

Last but not least, it is so rewarding to play for the little kiddie classes. I mean the 4 to 6 year olds. They are so darn cute and ask so many honest questions. At the Princeton Ballet School, there is this one teacher who teaches a bunch of little kiddies all Saturday morning and she handles them so impressively well. I had a total blast playing "alligator" and "fairy" music. It's also cool to play for the high schoolers who are learning pointe. By that point, you know they're serious about dance because that stuff looks so painful. The intermediate kids are the hardest because they are really uninspiring to watch. But I guess everyone has to go through an intermediate stage. It's the same in teaching piano. The intermediate stage is all about technique... very tedious and time consuming but necessary.

In the next post, I'll talk a little more specifically about dance accompaniment, how to organize music, what to play, etc.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Art vs. Academia









I get mixed reactions when I tell people that I'm applying to graduate ancient history programs. Some are sincerely excited for me, some are surprised, and many give me blank stares as they try to figure out if they heard me correctly.

Their reactions aren't wholly unexpected though, considering the fact that I spent the majority of my lifetime pursuing everything music. I dedicated a daily chunk of life from age 12-19 to the piano, violin, flute, CD players, church musicians, and every other miscellaneous class and training my time could afford. It was so much fun and I knew I was good at it because of all the validation I received.

But as life always goes, ten-year plans as a 15 year-old rarely ever remain unchanged. Who would've thought that I'd end up being a college graduate applying to ancient history departments?

The point of the matter is, they're right when they say that your teen years are the most formative years. Because now I am constantly engaged in this inner struggle between pursuing music or academia. Of course I've asked myself, why not do both? Pursuing one doesn't exclude the other. Philosophically speaking, that's certainly possible and certainly very appealing.

But then I take my head out of the clouds and imagine life more realistically. Earning a doctorate in Greco-Roman history is not like getting a 9-5 job with free evenings and weekends. I'd imagine lectures, seminars, meetings, and TONS of reading, not to mention the ridiculous amounts of language acquisition. And I don't know how other students do it, but when I write, I need to completely lose myself in another world in order to write logically and effectively.

How does that leave time and, more importantly, the right atmosphere for doing things like songwriting, music lessons, improving technique, and listening? Creating takes place on a whole other plane and you need to be completely immersed. Ask any artist and they'll tell you how much dedication is required to create something good and satisfactory.

I guess when I think of my personal goals, I want to be single-focused and pursue one thing to the best of my ability. But there's always that strange feeling of regret and uncertainty that I shouldn't have given up the other path. And I get easily swayed. After a particularly stirring artistic performance, whether it be music, writing, art, or dance, my artistic side gets seemingly reawakened. Then the next day I discover another incredible book by Martin Goodman on Jewish society in the Roman empire and am ready to dive headlong into the academic world. Of course, I haven't given up on one or the other entirely. But I've come to the conclusion that I can only be dedicated to one or else be mediocre in both.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Repercussions of too much language study




I've been noticing that I've been increasingly dissatisfied with reading translated texts. With ancient texts in particular, English renditions always seem a bit disjointed and awkward. Not that reading it in the Latin or Greek would be any easier, but you would be able to tell exactly which words and phrases are modifying which.

Put another way, reading a translation instead of the original is like the difference between looking at a photograph of the Lake District in England and seeing it with your own eyes. The photograph can give you an idea of what the place looks like, but you won't really know how real and beautiful it is without being there for yourself. Seeing it with your eyes gives you better depth perception, more vivid colors, and a panoramic view.

With that said, I'm having a lot of trouble reading the Bible without stopping at every phrase and wondering, "How else could that have been translated? What other words could they have used for that one word?" I know it might sound incredibly nerdy, but it's really troublesome. It takes me forever to get through a chapter. The NT is okay because I can imagine what the Greek may look like, but the OT is a killer. Hebrew is so different I can't imagine what the original is like. It may as well be Akkadian.

Do other people who study ancient languages have this problem?

I guess the solution is: I gotta learn Hebrew now.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Classical World in Cinema


Just putting in a plug for my professor, Matthew Fox, who is teaching this course this semester at Rutgers. I took it my junior year and loved it. We watched a different movie each week (Quo Vadis, Gladiator, Monty Python, to name a few) and spent class time discussing the political/social history, and film critics' reviews on each movie. Professor Fox is the best I've had at Rutgers in leading class discussions.

This class is what sparked my interest in the Greco-Roman world of the New Testament which is now what I wish to pursue in graduate school.

It's a 3-credit class, I believe, and the workload is very light (mostly readings + a few short papers). It only meets once a week, though at an off-campus location. If you have a car, it is definitely worth it!

Click on the picture to see a larger flyer.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Love Poetry in Near Eastern languages

For Valentine's Day 2008, Eisenbrauns offered a contest in which people could submit an original piece of love poetry written in an ancient Near Eastern language. They posted the winners and honorable mentions on their website. It's absolutely incredible to see what people came up with. There are some written in hieroglyphyics, hebrew, greek, and sumerian!

This piece won first prize, but the others are definitely worth checking out!

Egyptian Love Poem
by Sophie Harvey and Olivier Holmey
Undergraduates in Egyptology at Oxford

I love you.
I'm going to steal your heart
Because I am hungry for your love.
There is no other woman in my heart.
Unloose the bolt to your heart.
Dance with me till the land brightens.
You are my first, my end, my everything.

Heaven on earth is being in your embrace.
You are beautiful of face.
Your body is carved in alabaster.
I adore you like a flower or a star.
You are my first, my end, my everything.

I taste your lips and they are like a soft breeze.
I smell your perfume.
You are a goddess to me.
I was blind but with you I see.
I will take away your clothes
Because we wish to make love.
I breathe upon your body,
Making you tremble with exultation.
I kiss every place of your body.
You fill me with desire.
I will obey your every command.
I can't stop loving you.
I love you.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

College is over!

It's official. I got all my grades back and passed all my classes this semester which means I am done with college!! Boy it feels SO good to be done. The possibilities for the future are endless. On this side of life, everything looks like a good idea.

I could:
- look for a full-time job
- apply for a Latin teacher position
- apply to graduate programs
- travel the world for a bit first
- chill for a couple years before going back to school
- start my own company
- go on a missions trip to an exotic place
- live in a different state for a couple months
- try out an archaeology program in the middle east
- take jazz piano lessons!
- get married

I could make every one of those happen if I set my mind to it (ok, maybe not the last one). But it's way too hard to make a decision. Maybe I should ask myself, when I'm 70 years old, which one, or combination, of those would be most fulfilling. I think I should go around and interview some grandpas and grandmas.

According to Frank (my older brother), the only good thing about being old is having grandkids. If that's the case, then I need to get married.

According to Mom, she wishes every day to go back to school and get a PhD. I realize that I got my nerd genes from her, so it may be wise for me to continue my schooling. Also according to Mom, I need to make a lot of money so I can pay for my schooling.

According to my abnormal psychology professor, you can't find any fulfillment outside of yourself. Fulfillment comes from "finding your inner loving self", and in loving people without expectation. It makes complete sense, except for the inner loving self part. Unlike Prof. James, I believe that humans are inherently selfish. But not hopelessly selfish, because with God there is grace.

In any case, I know what I want when I'm 70:
- grandkids
- not to be senile
- able to tell good stories
- be published
- contribute a province in God's kingdom

Right now, I just want to read a good work of fiction or something non-academic. Haven't had the luxury in ages.

What book should I read?
Mansfield Park
The Aeneid
Lord of the Rings Trilogy
I Never Promised You a Rose Garden
1984
A Little Bit Wicked
Harry Potter
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Thursday, April 23, 2009

Officially done with thesis!

That's right. I finished writing my thesis last Wednesday at 5:30am. And as of 7pm today, I have also defended it and given a presentation to the faculty and students at the undergraduate honors thesis symposium in the classics department.

The exciting news is Prof. Brennan and Prof. Connolly proposed that we type set and publish my thesis online! It would be a nice little publication for Rutgers alumni/ae to read. Thomas Frusciano, the Rutgers archivist, also wants a copy to keep in the archives. I feel like I'm actually making a small contribution to the academic world at last.

So, once my thesis is nicely proofreaded and formatted, I'll post it on here for those nerds who enjoy reading painfully detailed accounts of history.

IN OTHER NEWS!!

This saturday is Rutgers Day! Come watch the classics department take center stage on the steps of Brower Commons on College Ave! There's going to be a runway -- Greek and Roman fashion shows every hour, AND a reenactment of gladiatorial combat at 1pm. My very own thesis adviser will be deejaying. haha... I wouldn't miss it for the world.

Monday, April 06, 2009

Proud of Rutgers Classics

I know I always complain about Rutgers, but believe it or not, there IS one thing I love about Rutgers -- the classics department! I have nothing bad to say about any of the classics courses I've taken nor any of the classics professors.

I've already written a post about my thesis adviser, Prof. Corey Brennan, who is super famous in the classics world. Today I was in his office and he had tons of correspondence from various universities and even something from the US Supreme Court about Cicero! (Not that I was snooping around or anything... it was all sprawled out on the table.)

Anyway, today I just read his blog post on my Latin professor, Serena Connolly, who is my all-time favorite professor and who apparently just was awarded a fellowship at the Institute for Advanced Study at Princeton. And guess what she is working on? A "book-length examination of the Disticha Catonis—an Imperial collection of Latin aphorisms—in their classical context"!!

I am quite excited for her and the topic she is studying. Hope to read her work when she's done! Here's the link for the rest of the blog post: http://rutgersclassics.wordpress.com/2009/04/05/serena-connolly-receives-200910-mellon-fellowship-for-assistant-professors-at-institute-for-advanced-study/

Oh and as a side note. My adviser also wrote an introductory blog post on my thesis topic. =) Here it is: http://rutgersclassics.wordpress.com/2009/03/27/a-60-second-ru-history-lesson-the-rutgers-latin-motto-sol-iustitiae-et-occidentem-illustra/

More about that later!

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

The Janitor Musician

It's great to be considered a well-rounded kind of musician who can be useful in various musical functions, but sometimes, I feel more like a janitor than a musician.

For example, compare the following scenarios:

  • There is a spill in the cafeteria. Call the janitor.
  • The trash bins are overflowing. Where is the janitor?
  • Why are there no more paper towels in the restrooms? Call the janitor.
  • I need an accompanist for service this Sunday. Call Jessica.
  • I need a studio accompanist for company class next week. Call Jessica.
  • Who can I get to accompany the violin recital? Maybe Jessica can.
  • I need a keyboardist for the summer conference. Call Jessica.
  • How does this hymn go again? Jessica, can you play it?
  • I can't accompany so many vocalists. Jessica, can you take some?
  • My pianist just became ill. Can you play for the choir this Sunday?
  • We would love to have handbells for the Christmas service. Call Jessica.
  • Who can we get to play music at our wedding? Ask Jessica.

I could go on forever, but you get the point. All-purpose musicians get used the most and appreciated the least. Their skills are taken forgranted (just like sound technicians). Why do I feel like an every-day, all-purpose musician that people can pull from the shelf and use whenever they need?

Nor am I the only one. Many musicians like me go unappreciated all the time. That is the reason why there are so many of us non-elite, freelance, working-class musicians. Who would be inspired to reach for higher achievements when they are treated like this?

Monday, March 30, 2009

Launching new website!

Check out my new website for Coram Deo Tutorials, my online school where I teach Latin, History, Grammar, and Music Theory. I would love any feedback as I am still relatively new to web design.

Click on the picture or go to www.coramdeotutorials.com.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

My Thesis Adviser

A couple of weeks ago, I found this article in the Community Tribune about my thesis adviser, Professor Corey Brennan! I didn't realize he was such an accomplished and famous classicist! Apparently, he is going on leave for 3 years to the American Academy in Rome. How awesome is that!

AND he used to be in a rock band called The Lemonheads!

Read the rest below:

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Alert: nerd post

I just discovered the most amazing tool, and I'm sure I must be the slowest college student not to have discovered it until now.

Did you know that if you're a university student, you can request articles to be sent to you electronically? Rutgers libraries has a pretty big collection of electronic periodicals but they usually don't go back far enough. Today, I needed an article from 1971 which was not available electronically. I filled out an ILL request form to have the article delivered to me, and within 3 hours, I received the article in my account scanned in and delivered in PDF format! Do they hire people to run around in the libraries and fill requests like these?

I can't believe I did not discover this until my final semester of college. What an amazing service!

Here's the link so you can try it out for yourself.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Do I have enough?

I read something interesting in a Boundless article the other day. The author was talking about how she got her dream house in Hawaii and has everything she ever wanted, but it wasn't as thrilling or fulfilling as she had imagined it. The key point was that we should stop thinking, "What if I had..." and start thinking, "Do I have enough?"

Do I have enough.

I can already foresee the many results that would come about if I could always keep that question in mind. I would spend a whole lot less money. I would be happier. My life would be simpler. I would have more time. I would live more in the present and less in the future. I would not age so quickly. I would be less stressed. I would be less selfish and more willing to serve others. And the list could go on and on...

Contentment really is a powerful virtue. It's hard to cultivate contentment in the culture I live in. I am daily reminded at school of all the achievements I could obtain for myself. Advertisements and coupons in the mail reinforce my selfish nature. And there is hardly a website I can visit where there isn't some advertisement for a sale product.

Some people advise you to ask yourself, "Do I really need that?" before you buy a product. But that question doesn't always work. There will always be something that you "need". More often than not, the "need" is something that will enhance your life rather than a necessity. It's better to ask the question "Do I have enough?" because in reality, you can live quite a satisfying and comfortable life with relatively very little.

And thus, I agree with Charles Dickens, whom the author quotes at the end of her article: "Enough is such a wonderful word."

Monday, January 26, 2009

Upcoming Performance

My friend, Angela Wu, is giving her senior piano recital next Friday. She has a great program lined up, including my favorite composer Rachmaninoff. I will have the privilege of performing a cute duet with her by Mozart. Come by if you're on campus!

Friday, January 30th, 6:00 PM.
Share Recital Hall, in the Marryott Music Building second floor (Douglass)

(P.S. This is my first time performing since sophomore year. It's been a while!)