It's official. I got all my grades back and passed all my classes this semester which means I am done with college!! Boy it feels SO good to be done. The possibilities for the future are endless. On this side of life, everything looks like a good idea.
I could:
- look for a full-time job
- apply for a Latin teacher position
- apply to graduate programs
- travel the world for a bit first
- chill for a couple years before going back to school
- start my own company
- go on a missions trip to an exotic place
- live in a different state for a couple months
- try out an archaeology program in the middle east
- take jazz piano lessons!
- get married
I could make every one of those happen if I set my mind to it (ok, maybe not the last one). But it's way too hard to make a decision. Maybe I should ask myself, when I'm 70 years old, which one, or combination, of those would be most fulfilling. I think I should go around and interview some grandpas and grandmas.
According to Frank (my older brother), the only good thing about being old is having grandkids. If that's the case, then I need to get married.
According to Mom, she wishes every day to go back to school and get a PhD. I realize that I got my nerd genes from her, so it may be wise for me to continue my schooling. Also according to Mom, I need to make a lot of money so I can pay for my schooling.
According to my abnormal psychology professor, you can't find any fulfillment outside of yourself. Fulfillment comes from "finding your inner loving self", and in loving people without expectation. It makes complete sense, except for the inner loving self part. Unlike Prof. James, I believe that humans are inherently selfish. But not hopelessly selfish, because with God there is grace.
In any case, I know what I want when I'm 70:
- grandkids
- not to be senile
- able to tell good stories
- be published
- contribute a province in God's kingdom
Right now, I just want to read a good work of fiction or something non-academic. Haven't had the luxury in ages.
