Tuesday, December 14, 2010

The gospel (or lack thereof) according to Aeschylus

Today was one of the few times I had a worshipful experience while studying for my final exam tomorrow. This time, I was studying for the Hellenistic World of the NT final and was reviewing Aeschylus' Oresteian trilogy. I cannot be more grateful for the chance to be in Dr. McDonough's class this semester. The way he can read the Greek classics and relate them to the gospel is invaluable. I'm grateful for the classics background I received at Rutgers to fully understand this course.


The Oresteian Trilogy is a Greek tragedy written in the 5th cent. BC, during the height of Athenian civilization. It tells the story of the vicious cycle of blood-guilt and justice in the House of Atreus. To give a very brief summary (and this is totally doing injustice to the actual text), Agamemnon sacrificed his daughter to the gods so that the winds would be favorably for all the Argive Greeks to set sail toward Troy. After the war, Agamemnon returns home only to be murdered by his wife who is carrying out justice for her daughter. Now her son, Orestes, is under compulsion to carry out justice for his father by murdering his mother. After the deed, the Furies, who punish blood-guilt, are after Orestes. Apollo decides to help Orestes out by setting up a trial in Athens with Athena as the judge and the citizens as the jury. Apollo defends Orestes. The juries votes are cast even, but Athena sides with Orestes. He goes free and the Furies are placated by Athena who makes a deal with them.

The problem with this story is that there is no resolution for the cycle of guilt and justice. Orestes' sin went unpunished. For the Greeks, the only justice for blood-guilt is death. And it seems that those nearest to the guilty are responsible for carrying out the just penalty, which would in turn make them guilty of bloodshed. It's fascinating as I re-read this story, how hard the Greeks try to figure out how to carry out justice while extending pardon/mercy to Orestes. In the end, there is no real resolution.

The fact is, there is no way to break the cycle without bringing in a third party to expiate their sin. What they're missing is a God who can be wholly just and wholly merciful at the same time. But we know the God of the Bible -- a wholly just and wholly merciful God. All of us are guilty of death because the wages of sin before a holy God is death. If God is truly just, He must put us all to death. But God knew a way to be wholly merciful to us in his love for us, by atoning for our sins through Jesus. Jesus breaks the cycle of guilt and justice by offering us mercy and taking our punishment in our place. It is mind-blowing. The Greek gods would have never done such a thing for humans.

Re-reading the Greek tragedies fills me once again with overflowing gratitude that God allowed me to know His mercy, so that I do not have to be stuck in the same, merciless cycle that the Greeks had with their gods.

Monday, November 08, 2010

Christianity is strange.

If you've grown up in a Christian home, it's really hard to look at Christianity from a non-Christian worldview. I've been taught Bible stories before I could even speak English, I learned to pray like I learned to read. It just happens in a completely natural way. But a strange thought suddenly occurred to me today. Some of the things I believe are really quite wacko, if I step back and look at them outside of myself.

For example, how weird is it that I am reading in the 21st century a Book that contains the words and actions of Jesus from the 1st century AD? And how much weirder is it that I can talk to and have a personal relationship right now with this same Jesus who was once on earth in a totally different time, context, and culture? Plus, I am also speaking with someone who was once dead and came back to life.

And as a seminarian, how strange is it that I am spending a couple years of my life scrutinizing the words in the Bible, trying to understand the 1st century Jesus while talking to him personally in the present? It's almost like time travel...

And the biggest mystery of it all? Observing all this ridiculous "foolishness" still doesn't give me any reason to doubt the truth of the gospel.

Perhaps it's because being convinced of the truth takes something more than just logic.

"What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him"— these things God has revealed to us through the Spirit. -1 Cor. 2:9-10*





*Disclaimer: I have not done proper exegesis on this verse yet. I will await my fellow classmate's paper on this passage due in Dec. =)

Sunday, October 24, 2010

The Maccabean Revolt

I've been burying myself in Greek history today in preparation for my midterm exam on Monday. I just spent the last couple hours reading up on the Maccabean revolt and wanted to post my thoughts as a way of studying and digesting.

The Maccabean revolt was all about the struggle between Hellenization and religious/political freedom for the Jewish people. After Alexander the Great, Israel ended up in a bad position, because it stood right in between the Ptolemaic and the Seleucid kingdoms. While under the control of the Ptolemies, the Jews had a pretty good amount of religious freedom. Many of them settled in Alexandria and in order to take part in the educational privileges there, and were thus further educated in Hellenistic culture as well. During this time, the Hebrew Bible had to be translated into Greek so that the Jews could read it. There was a great deal of hellenization happening with the Jews. But as with any time of change, there were still people who struggled with figuring out how to maintain religious faithfulness in a changing world.

Once the Seleucid empire conquered the Ptolemaic kingdom, Israel had a worse time. Antiochus III left the kingdom a mess when he lost against Rome in the Battle of Magnesia. Rome forced them to pay one of the heaviest fines in its history, and it had to be repaid within 12 years. By the time Antiochus IV came into power, his constant work was to scrounge up enough money to pay Rome back. Several Jewish figures took advantage of this by bribing Antiochus IV to obtain the position of high priest. Eventually, Menelaus secured the role as he offered the highest price and also promised to promote hellenistic ways, which Antiochus IV loved. Menelaus allowed Antiochus into the Temple treasury to take money to pay Rome. This infuriated the Jews all the more, but the last straw came when Antiochus built a small altar on top of the altar of burnt offering and sacrificed a pig to Zeus. He then commanded all the Jews to do the same in various locations. Antiochus IV really brought death upon himself for forcing the Jews to make sacrifices to Zeus. What was he thinking? This last action prompted the beginning of the Maccabean revolt.

Mattathias, the first leader of the Hasmoneans (family line of the Maccabean revolt), killed a Jew for trying to follow Antiochus' orders. He then called for all those who wished to be faithful to the law to join him in their guerrilla efforts to overthrow the Seleucid throne. Mattathias died before they made the attack, but Judas Maccabeus succeeded him as leader. He successfully led the revolt against Antiochus IV and thus established a period of Hasmonean leadership in Israel (164-63 BC).

What's interesting to note is that by the end of Hasmonean rule, the Hasmoneans themselves were becoming more and more hellenized. Although they originally fought for religious freedom, they themselves became more and more tolerant and embracing of Hellenistic culture. This brings in the idea that Judas Maccabeus himself may not have been so purely Jewish as he might seem. Perhaps there were already traces of Hellenism in him. Remember back when they were under Ptolemaic rule, Jews eagerly embraced the culture in Alexandria. It is possible that hellenization trickled through the Jewish community through their own people. We cannot make a clear distinction between diaspora, hellenistic Jews and the Jews in Judea.

However, as a response to this hellenization, once again sects of Jews formed who began to reconsider what it meant to be a faithful Jew -- Pharisees, Sadducees, and Essenes, to name a few.

Fascinating time of history... when cultures collide, there is always a struggle for reconciling between them.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Gordon Fee on learning to do NT exegesis

"For many, going through this material will be like the experience of a Pentecostal trying to worship in a liturgical church. At the beginning, such a person can hardly worship because he or she doesn't know when to turn the page or when to kneel. But once the proper kinetic responses are learned, one can concentrate on worship itself."

haha. what a great analogy.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

For those who read their Bible

Once there was this man traveling from Jerusalem to Jericho, and he fell among thorns, and the thorns sprang up and choked him. And as he went on, he didn’t have money, and he met the Queen of Sheba, and she gave him 1,000 talents of gold and 100 changes of raiment. And he got into a chariot and drove furiously, and when he was driving under a big juniper tree, his hair caught on a limb of that tree, and he hung there many days, and the ravens brought him food to eat and water to drink, and he ate 5,000 loaves of bread and two fishes.

One night when he was hanging there asleep, his wife Delilah came along and cut off his hair, and he dropped, and fell on stony ground. But he got up and went on, and it began to rain, and it rained forty days and forty nights, and he hid himself in a cave, and he lived on locust and wild honey.

Then he went on ‘til he met a servant who said, “Come, take supper at my house.” And he made an excuse and said, “No, I won’t. I have married a wife, and I can’t go.” And the servant went out in the highways and in the hedges and compelled him to come in.

After supper, he went on and came on down to Jericho. And when he got there, he looked up and saw old Queen Jezebel sitting down way up high in a window. And she laughed at him. And he said, "Throw her down." And they did. And he said, “Throw her down again.” And they threw her down seventy times seven, and of the fragments that remained they picked up twelve baskets full, besides women and children. And they said, “Blessed are the piecemakers.” Now, whose wife do you think she will be in the Judgment Day?

-Thanks to Ravi Zacharias who entertained us with this yesterday.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

I need to join a worship band.

We had an all-school prayer service this morning and the worship team led us in this song. I've never heard it done so well, and we've never sang this in church before. It's a good song (except for the word "darling"). Oddly enough, my fingers are itching to play keyboard again. I miss playing for worship. I guess after playing for church for 11 years straight... old habits are hard to stop.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AR4CCLnmf1Q




Thank you for the cross Lord
Thank you for the price You paid
Bearing all my sin and shame
In love you came
And gave amazing grace

Thank you for this love, Lord
Thank you for the nail-pierced hands
Washed me in your cleansing flow
Now all I know
Your forgiveness and embrace

Chorus:
Worthy is the Lamb
Seated on the throne
Crown you now with many crowns
You reign victorious
High and lifted up
Jesus, Son of God
The darling of heaven crucified
Worthy is the Lamb

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Revisiting one of my favorites



Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won't turn back
I know you are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me


And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on the earth

-Matt Redman, You Never Let Go

Thursday, August 05, 2010

Something In The Water - Brooke Fraser

I am loving Brooke Fraser's newest single. She is the best songwriter I know. So good with melodies and even better with lyrics!










I wear a demeanor made of bright pretty things
What she wears, what she wears, what she wears
Birds singing on my shoulder
In harmony it seems
How they sing, how they sing, how they sing
Give me nights of solitude
Red wine, just a glass or too
Reclined in a hammock on a balmy evening
I’ll pretend that it’s no thing
That’s skipping my heart when I think
Of you thinking of me, babe
I’m crazy over you

Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
There’s something in the water
Something in the water
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
There’s something in the water
That makes me love you like...

I got halos made of summer
Rhythms made of spring
What she wears, what she wears, what she wears
I got crowns of words I've woven
Each one a song to sing

Oh I sing, oh I sing, oh I sing
Give me long days in the sun
Preludes to the nights to come
Previews of the mornings laying in all lazy
Give me something fun to do
Like a life of loving you
Kiss me quick now, baby
I’m still crazy over you

Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
There’s something in the water
Something in the water
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
There’s something in the water
That makes me love you like I do

Give me nights of solitude

Red wine, just a glass or two

Give me something fun to do

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Five Essential Components of the Gospel by John Piper

1. The gospel is a message about historical events. Life, death, and resurrection of Jesus Christ. There is no gospel without these events.

2. The gospel is a message about what those events achieved.
-The payment for our sins.
-The completion of perfect obedience.
-The removal of the wrath of God.
-The installation of King Jesus as crucified Messiah and Lord of the universe.
-The destruction of death.

3. The gospel is a message about the transfer of the achievements to particular persons.
-By faith alone, not by works

4. The gospel is the message about the good things that are now true about us because the achievement has been applied to us.
-God is now only merciful to you and never wrathful. (Propitiation)
-You are now counted righteous in Christ. (Justification)
-You are now freed from the guilt and the power of sin. (Redemption)
-You are now positionally and progressively holy. (Sanctification)

5. The gospel is a message about the glorious God himself as our final, eternal, all-satisfying treasure.


(Taken from his message given at Together for the Gospel 2006)

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Dance Accompanist - Part 2

My time as an accompanist at the Princeton Ballet School will be over this Friday. Very sad to leave such an awesome place, but keeping my fingers crossed for a job at the Boston Ballet! I figured now is a good time to finish this topic, which I started a long time ago. So for any potential ballet pianists out there, hope this information will help you out!

1. Music

When I started out playing 3 years ago, I had no idea how to play for ballet classes nor what music I should play. My supervisor gave me a very short and sweet list: "four or five 2/4's, four or five 3/4's, a couple waltzes, a couple polonaises, a tango, a nice big waltz". And then he had me sit next to another pianist to observe. After that, one of the teachers, desperate for a pianist, pulled me over and said I was ready to play. Trial by fire! Needless to say, that short and sweet list of music wasn't nearly enough music for one full class. Right now, I have collected two binders full of music, which is only enough for about 3 classes, assuming I'm playing different music for every exercise.

Here's a list of music I would recommend. (My apologies for misspelled French terms.)

Ecossaises (2/4): Perfect for any tendu exercise or foot warmup. I use it for any slow 2/4 exercise.

Marches (as many as you can get your hands on): These are amazingly useful. They work for tendus, releves, frappes, degages, and basically function like ecossaises. I particularly like ragtime marches because they sound more upbeat and are more fun to play at a slow tempo.

Fast polkas (2/4): These are the ones where the LH part is "bong cha bong cha" all the way through. It's hard to find fast and nice-sounding ones, but these are gold when you find them. They're good for all the fast 2/4 exercises and warm up jumps in center (e.g. changements). In the more advanced classes, teachers seem to give a lot more fast 2/4 exercises, so I'm always running out of these. Need to collect more.

Tangos (2/4): Fondus! I love playing tangos, but I rarely get to use them. They're really good for fondus and really slow exercises in center. You only need a few of these.

Polonaises (2/4 and 3/4): I almost always play a polonaise for grande battements. They always fit and they're nice and strong pieces for those big kicks. Sometimes, the teacher will ask for a polonaise in 3 and count 6 beats per phrase instead of 8. I have two polonaises in 3, and maybe five or six in 2. Slower polonaises are also good for pirouette exercises in 2/4.

Lyrical 3/4: For plies, stretches, and adagios, these are all you use... and EXTREMELY hard to find. Most of my plie music is from actual ballet class sheet music books, because I have had no luck finding suitable, square pieces from classical repertoire. Basically, you are looking for a 3/4 that doesn't sound too waltzy, usually with sweeping 8th notes in the LH and a pretty melody in the right. Plies usually last for 64 measures, adagios for 32 measures on each side. Stretches are unpredictable so I just repeat various sections until the stretch is over.

Medium waltzes: Think Chopin waltzes. These usually fit the pirouette exercises from the corner, or any spinning exercises before jumps. They're also useful for some barre exercises when the teacher gives it in a faster 3.

Big waltzes: Faster and bigger than Chopin waltzes. Any waltz with lots of octaves and big chords usually work. These are used for big jumps from the corner. You usually only play one of these per class, if at all.

Soupy waltz: This one is a little hard to explain. Sometimes teachers give a balancé exercise. A medium waltz would be too fast and a lyrical waltz too slow. Soupy waltzes are a bit slower than Chopin waltzes and sound fuller. Usually the LH rhythm is quarter, half note, quarter, half note. The quarter note is a low octave. Probably the best way to play for these exercises is to improvise, another skill I need to work on.

Bigger polkas: I'm not sure what to call these, but they basically have the same rhythm as a polka but with bigger chords and a bit slower. These are what I play for all the petit allegro jumps in center.

6/8s and Galops: You need a good five or six of these. Some teachers like to give tendus and degages in 6/8.

I might have missed something but for the most part, these are the kinds of pieces I've been playing for class. Every pianist at the school has his/her own collection of music. Many of them improvise on simple pieces to fit the exercise. They are very inspiring to listen to.

Now with all this music, you'll quickly run into the problem of organizing your music so you can find them fast enough. I normally get between 30 seconds to 2 minutes between exercises to find the next piece, so it's always important to put your music into some sort of order.


2. Organization

It took me about 2 years to figure out how to organize my music. I finally figured out that the easiest way is to have one binder for duple meter and one for triple. Within each binder, I divide the pieces according to tempo or style. For example:

In my duple binder: Lyrical 2/4s, Slow 2/4s, Tangos, Fast 2/4s, petit allegro pieces, polonaises, codas

In my triple binder: Lyrical 3/4s, Soupy waltzes, Medium waltzes, big waltzes, 6/8s, polonaises in 3


3. Beginning and Ending

Always begin exercises with a 4 count intro. This doesn't necessarily mean 4 measures. In duple meter, one measure usually gets 2 or 4 counts. Ending pieces are bit more tricky, because often times the exercise will not fit the length of the piece exactly. This is where theory is really important to know. In order to end a piece, always end on the tonic chord and give a nice and clear cadence to let the dancers know that you are ending. For short pieces of 32 measures, it's fairly straight forward. Lyrical and slow pieces are a bit harder but you can generally take your time on these to come to a cadence. Sometimes teachers will tack on a balance at the end of an exercise. I usually play an extra 8 or 16 measures for the balance and then end the piece. Dancers are instructed to hold their position until the music stops, so I think the pianist decides how long to hold it for.


Well, I hope all that was helpful for any other accompanists out there. I don't by any means claim to know everything about ballet accompanying. I've only been doing this for three years so this is just what I've learned so far. So let me end my recommending a book that I've referenced from time to time. Dance and Music by Harriet Cavalli. It's got great musical examples in the back, and she goes into detail about each exercise.

I'm thankful I got the chance to play for Princeton Ballet. I've loved getting to meet so many professional dancers and teachers. They're all incredibly nice people. I only wish I had more chances to play for the company. One of the perks of being an accompanist is getting to watch phenomenal dancers and really see all the dedication, effort, and pain that goes into all the details of every move. They are serious athlete-artists and never fail to inspire me.






Thursday, March 11, 2010

Teaching Realities

If someone were to ask me right now what I do, I would probably answer that I'm a teacher. I've been in some kind of teaching role for 7 years now and I am beginning to think that this is what I want to do for the rest of my life.

Pros: I love the constant challenge of organizing information in a presentable and orderly way. I also like the freedom to be creative in how I want my students to practice and learn new material. The method changes for each student because they all understand things differently. As much as I love my good students, i.e. the ones who do all the work and get things super quickly, it's usually the bad students that force me to improve my teaching skills. They force me to wrack my brains to figure out why they're not learning and how else I can get through to them. As a teacher, the one thing that I absolutely love hearing and that gives me total affirmation is, "ohhh!" I LOVE it.

Cons: It's taken me this long to face the reality that out of all the students I will ever teach, only about 30% will be good students. The rest will be the ones that drive you insane and feel like you're a failure of a teacher or you're wasting your life. So I have to be reconciled to that reality and ask myself if the 30% is worth it. Also, my sense of humor is quite lacking. I need tutoring in that field.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Snippet of my conversation with Werner

I loved my session with my German tutor today.

Werner: Haben sie viele Freunde, Jessica?
Me: Ich habe nicht viele Freunde.
Werner: Ooo warum nicht? Warum nicht haben sie viele Freunde? Mögen Sie die Menschen nicht?
Me: Doch! Ich mag... ein bisschen Menschen? How do you say "a few"?
Werner: ...ein paar Leute.
Me: Ok, ich mag ein paar Leute.
Werner: Aber, warum mögen Sie nur ein paar Leute? Warum mögen Sie alle Leute?
Me: Mm, ich mag nicht "annoying" Leute.
Werner: annoying = ärgerlichen
Werner: OK. Dann bin ich besser ruhig.
Me: hahaha...

Friday, February 12, 2010

What I learned from a broken water heater... during a blizzard.

  1. Always register for the warranty on your water heater.
  2. When your water heater leaks, you have to turn off all running water.
  3. Don't assume that you can fix your water heater within one day.
  4. Don't workout at the gym right before a blizzard if your water heater is broken.
  5. In the winter, cold running water is like ice water. Your hands turn numb in about 5 seconds.
  6. Washing dishes with rubber gloves doesn't help.
  7. Don't drive to Home Depot on the 2nd afternoon of a blizzard.
  8. If your car gets stuck in the snow, keep going forward and backward. Then head downhill and make a detour.
  9. Make friends with helpful neighbors who know how to get cars unstuck.
  10. Put cat litter under the car tires.

What happens when you take a hot shower for the first time in 3 days:
  1. Your hair no longer lies flat against your head.
  2. Your skin feels slippery smooth.
  3. Your back is no longer sticky.
  4. Your feet don't feel grimy.
  5. The warm water makes you really sleepy.
  6. Your skin feels as dry as fresh, hot laundry.
  7. You get slightly high off feeling clean and are tempted to go without showering for another 3 days just so you can get that feeling again.
The kinds of things running water can do:
  1. Run the dishwasher
  2. Wash hands
  3. Wash vegetables
  4. Wash cups
  5. Fill pots for cooking
  6. Refill the toilet tank automatically EVERY TIME you flush.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Prepositions with Leon!

I found this awesome strip illustrating Greek prepositions. Love it. Enjoy, all (zero of) my Greek friends!

Friday, January 01, 2010

Intermission

Oh You bring hope to the hopeless
And light to those in the darkness
And death to life
Now I'm alive
Oh You give peace to the restless
And joy to homes that are broken
I see You now
In You I'm found

And You opened the door for me
And You laid down Your life to set me free
All that I am will serve You Lord
And You opened my eyes to see
All the wonder and awe of Christ in me
Jesus You're everything I need

Oh You fill those who are empty
And rescue those in the valley
And through it all You calm my soul
Oh You find me in my weakness
And heal the wounds of my heartache
I worship You in spirit and truth

-Oh You Bring, Hillsong United